SEA Currents: Corwith Cramer
December 10, 2015
I’m Dreaming of a Hot Christmas
Days off the coast of St. Lucia!
Description of location
Western Tropical Atlantic
Windy, sunny, beautiful, BF 4/5
It's difficult for me to write blog posts, because no matter how many hours I spend alone with my thoughts at bow lookout I still cannot find the adequate words to describe this experience. I have moments where everything still seems new, and that this journey has just begun. Every day I am still learning new things about sailing, the crew, and even about myself. No night goes by that I am not completely enraptured by the dazzling sky above me, although I have spent countless of hours now working beneath it. Every shooting star still holds wonder as if it were the first time I have ever seen one, though by now I feel I have seen hundreds. It seems I boarded the Corwith Cramer just days ago, but it's now been twenty-five. No sunset gets less wonderful, no sunrise gets less spectacular. We are constantly surrounded by the ocean, yet I have never felt so big and at the same time so small in my life.
Then there are other moments where I get so caught up in the routine of everyday ship life that I sometimes forget our overarching goal is to cross the Atlantic Ocean. When confronted with the task of leading ship operations for a six hour block of time, I tackle the task with confidence (and of course a sense of nervousness), and I easily forget that I knew nothing about sailing just weeks ago. I often forget that time is moving forward outside of our little world, and that when we finally reach land much could have changed without our knowing. Days here become hours, and hours become days. I often mark time judging from which of the six meal servings we are currently hastily devouring. This lifestyle is so different from one that I was used to on shore, but now it is everything that I know and live by.
If my last two paragraphs have not completely confused you on what it's like to be on a tall ship jetting across the Atlantic Ocean, here's the short at sweet: Time is arbitrary, things are different and new and completely strange-yet it is the life we seamlessly live day to day, and somehow it feels right.
In other news, it is hot hot HOT (and this is coming from a girl native to southern Louisiana). It is easy to forget that we are in the midst of the holiday season when we are shedding layers left and right, but little things like caroling and paper decorations are getting us in the festive spirit-and although we all miss our friends and families dearly, there's something special about sharing this time of love and cheer with our little community.
On a final note-I know that all of us will go home in some way changed forever. Living through this experience truly makes you think outside of yourself and the world that you thought you knew. I pray that we all change for the better, but I surely know it must be so. The friends I have made here will carry on well into my lifetime, and the memories made will be eternal.
To my family back home, I think of you all every day. I am so endlessly appreciative of your constant sacrifice and love. I could not have dreamed of a better support system and I know that all my accomplishments up to this very moment were only made possible because of you all. Thank you for your unwavering and unconditional love.
To Patrick- I know this is such an exciting time in your life and I am so disheartened that I cannot be there for you. Graduating college is no small feat- and I hope you know just how proud of you I am. You are so unbelievably hardworking, compassionate, and selfless. I know that the future only holds great things for you, and I cannot wait to get back and celebrate with you! Please let your family know that I miss them dearly as well, and that I am desperately craving your dad's delicious crawfish ettoufee (I talk about it a lot, actually)!! I love and miss you immeasurably.
Now for a group of collective shoutouts:
Happy birthday, Tommy! I miss you! Love, your best friend, Kathryn.
Kenya! Hi dear I hope you are happy & healthy! I love you so much and I'm sailing home to ya! Love, Beb.
Shouts out to the big Matt-daddy himself and all of Emma's family back home! She misses and loves you to the night sun and back!